by Christine Barkley
Melancholy starts the same as always
with a simple wish, formless:
to be anywhere but here. To go
or be gone
(whichever is simpler, leaves me
more formless);
to move along
or against
(as long
as I am far from
following, or staying still);
to be left with a place to miss,
but never to return;
to set that place ablaze
and keep leaving as it burns.
No forwarding address,
no more than one
glance back –
just a reminder
that the rearview
will even make
sunlight through smoke
look like the golden hour;
that anything left behind
will feel like a loss,
even if I couldn’t bring it with me
or didn’t want to
or it was on fire.
(first published in Door is a Jar Magazine, Fall 2022)